...at the end of the day

 

 

 

at the end of the day

 

 I often wonder;

 did I live it well?

 

 have I done what I could to make this the best day

 

 did I waste it?

 

 

 

 

Sadly enough many times I feel that the minutes that were given

were wasted

 on

 worry, anger, insecurity

 

stupid things that don't matter.

 

 

 

At the end of the day...

that "someone" might not be there any longer

 

did I
 pay attention

 observe
appreciate
forgive
 

 ...was I forgiven?

 

 

 Did I make someone smile

 or did someone smile at me
 

 ...wipe someone's tears

 or, smile thru my own tears?

 

 



 

Wondering

 

if I listened

 or someone listened to me?
 

Yes Bella, we listen to you humming

Fiona doesn't seem to be enjoying it greatly...

Was I kind

was my heart open?

Did I give someone a hug

receive a hug

Bella...goof ball !

 

Did I laugh?

God, I need to laugh more.

 

Did I tell someone I loved them?
...do I feel loved?

 

 

 

 did I say the right thing,

what is the right thing?

 

or hurt someone's feelings

 

 Starting to realize how fragile life is

 but that IS life
fragile

 

 

At the end of the day

 

all I know is

how to be me

 

true

transparent

 and clearly an idiot at times

 

good, bad or indifferent
you only get one
...one shot

 mine's not perfect
 but it's pretty darn close

I can say that
at the end of day

 

 

Wishing you all a wonderful weekend.

 

 

 

2 weeks of Gabriel

 

 

 

It's been 2 weeks

...all I can say it's truly amazing what a little attention can do for a kid

Fog horn is giving homeschool 2 thumbs up

 though he still gets mad at spelling and writing

 he shows up.

 

I have realized spending this time with him that he is not a good speller and has a hard time reading

so guess what we do?

 We read.

and the we read some more

 

 

In history of the world we studied Genghis Kahn and voila...Chinese lanterns

 

Paul Klee German- Swiss artist was the artist of the week

..hence the art work

 

 a favorite inspiration

That artist woman

too much studying...Mimi having a snooze fest.

 a few books that Fog horn loves

"Busy times" is a plain and simple Amish book-

which he reads like nobodies business

 

Foghorn is also a " knight in training" and therefor adores Roland

 

 soon we are on to Sam Samurai

Chef surprised me one day 

my favorite all time American game

Old Maid

 

I had the same card set as a kid.

 

Now Foghorn and I are playing it together.

Mimi is on the look out for any incoming helicopters or space ships- there has been a lot of that kind of noise in the house these past week and Mimi is usually the target.

 

 

...and of course Martha has to do it again-

brought this home from the library

 looks really good

 

 

( from pinterest)

Foghorn has had to " think " he way thru a lot of problems

question things

 and find his own answers

 use the dictionary to find the spelling

 and reads a lot

 

He gets to talk a lot- (how he processes)

 we have spent hours on photosynthesis

 

and realized today having lunch at the café he was pouring sap on his waffles-

( maple syrup)

 a by product of the whole photosynthesis he was learning...pretty neat.

 

His 3 favorites so far...

 knitting

 riding

 and reading

 

...funny, I can relate.

 

My heart feels full.

 

 

Happiness under the Big Sky

...in anticipation of brighter days to come

ready to be dazzled by the beauty of Big Sky country

 it's been a long winter

 

let me just tell you

I am beyond giddy that summer is on it's way

bring it!

 

 

been dancing barefoot in the kitchen with Foghorn

 to this....

 

feels so good to be happy again

 

 

 

...and so the story goes

 

Fog horn is having issues at school.

Talks too much

can't sit still

rushes thru his work

 - says his teach

 

 

 

As a toddler he didn't say much

as a matter of fact he didn't really speak at all

I was worried- we all were worried

then one day at around 2 years

the flood gates opened

all this time he had been quiet

words came out in full sentences

we are talking volumes here

and hasn't stopped since

 

 

Fog horn processes thru talking

there are questions to be answered

lots of them

school doesn't have time for that

school is about listening

listening to the teacher

 

be quiet

 

Fog horn likes to play

to run

to jump

boys get in trouble for that sometimes

too rambunctious

 

sit still

 

Fog horn likes to finish his task

 so that he can quickly move on to the next

eager to see what is around the corner

size the day type of guy

 

slow down

 

 

well as you can see

he also konks out at the end of the day

 my little rooster gets up at 5 am and falls asleep at 7 pm

 ( this was on our trip to Norway)

Fog horn is on to new adventures

 

We decided to pull him from school and home school

It has been 2 years since my daughter flew the coop to school

I have had a hole in my heart

when the whole herd left

 

 different- homeschooling one

 instead of three.

I am up for the challenge and the new adventures it will bring

my heart is filled with joy that I get to spend time with Foghorn

 It has become clear to me that we are so different and have different talents and needs

 my 4 kids are a perfect example

 

I have been reading "look me in the eye"

it is so insight full how this kid gets thru life

what we think is normal is not normal to some

 

 

- and by the way it's one of the funniest books I have ever read

 

Of course this spurred me on with my homeschooling -

we don't all learn the same way 
Though Gabriel does not have Asperger's
 he is a high energy kid.

  A huge advantage for him

that I can tailor his education to his needs

 

 Fog horn is full of life

well, he is full of it

period.

 

  teachers don't have time for this

with all the pressure and the class size

 

 and I understand that

 but I also believe that one size does not fit all

 

 We'll take this year by year

Life has an organic way of changing

maybe Fog horn will be back in school next year

 maybe a little extra attention will "cure" his wiggly self

 

 

In the meantime Monday we start the week

with Gabriels first riding lesson

I think that is a pretty neat way of starting homeschool

 on horse back

 

I used Oak meadow for my kids and the library

oh man, did we use the library!

 

This time around I am doing something entirely different

 with Fog horn

the library will remain the same

For any one who is on the fence about homeschooling

 I hope this little post will give you courage to jump in

( the water is fine)

 

Children are little for such a little while

my mission is to make his childhood the best I can

 with both learning and playing

 

...and of course

 

talking.

“Boys are found everywhere on top of, underneath, inside of, climbing on, swinging from,

running around or jumping to.

 Mothers love them,

 little girls hate them, older sisters and brothers tolerate them,

adults ignore them

and Heaven protects them.”

 

Alan Beck

 

...and so the story goes.